Blog Update

Hello there, it feels like it has been a while since I last posted. For those of you that are wondering why I haven’t been active on the blog lately, it is simply because things in my life happened. I know I was going to write more in my mental health series last month, but because personal matters took priority, I decided to give myself a little hiatus on the blog. That isn’t to say it is a bad thing because ultimately, I have to put myself first before anything else. I was going to publish at least one more post before the end of May, but I have decided to postpone it for now depending on the circumstances. So much has happened to me lately that it has impacted my mental health in a negative way, and I thought it would be best to share what has been going on.

I am going to start off with the biggest change that happened. I quit my current job at the beginning of the month. Yes, I had to leave another job but it isn’t for reasons that you think. I did enjoy my job for the most part, and it wasn’t a toxic work environment. However, things happened at work that were going to be too much for me to handle which ultimately led to my decision to resign. What actually happened was that this month my work was going to have an annual summer camp for their youth clients for a week. Everyone was required to work that entire time both day and night. I do not enjoy camping and being in the outdoors where it is usually hot during the summer, and there is barely any wifi. Plus, I would have to end up sleeping a cabin which I wouldn’t have enjoyed. Another major thing that’s going to happen is that the organization I worked for is moving. This was announced a few months ago, and I think I mentioned it in my job update. I was hoping the new location wasn’t going to be far away, but unfortunately that wasn’t the case. That was biggest factor that led to me quitting. Overall, there was so much that was going to happen in the coming months that it would put too much stress on me.

At first, I was very nervous telling my supervisor about my resignation because I was worried that they were going to be very disappointed and upset I was leaving. I mean I have done so much for the organization that I was praised for making a valuable impact. However, in the end what matters is putting myself first and that I don’t owe anything to a job. I am not committed to a workplace for life. I finally got the courage to tell my supervisor even though I was still nervous. I told them I was leaving for personal reasons to soften the blow, and that I was grateful for the opportunities and skills I have learned during my time. It turned out that the meeting went better than I expected, even though my supervisor was sad and disappointed to see me leave. To be honest, this resignation wasn’t an easy decision but things happened that were out of my control. My supervisor even asked if I wanted to change my mind, and if there was anything they could do to help. I wished there was a way they could help me and keep my employed, but I just didn’t have an answer for them. It is like they were trying to make me feel guilty. In the end everyone wished me good luck and my supervisor even offered to be a reference when I apply to future jobs (I will talk about that in a moment).

I am very sad that I couldn’t stay at my current job much longer even though I enjoyed my time there. Believe me, I wouldn’t have decided on resigning if the circumstances didn’t turn out to be what they were. Even my own mom wasn’t happy that I decided to quit my job and that I didn’t even discuss it with her. I mean why should I? I am an adult and should be responsible to make my own decisions even if they aren’t the best. I will say I am proud to have been able to excel at that job and do things I have never done before. For example, I never did grant reporting, but I was able to succeed at it. I never worked with blind and visually impaired people, but now I have experience in that area, and it wasn’t that bad. If I were to compare this point of my career to where I was several years ago at my first job, I think I have made a lot of progress. Now here’s to looking ahead at the next chapter in my career.

That brings me to the next part of my update where I am once again in the job search process. I have said numerous times about how difficult the process was, and I was sure met with the same frustration when job searching. I was trying to look for jobs even while I was employed at my last job, but I didn’t get an offer. Since then, I had a few interviews only to be rejected after despite fitting most of the qualifications and doing so much preparation. I just hope that the most recent interview I had last week will lead me to getting a job offer. At this point I am getting tired of applying to jobs, but I will keep applying so I can get a new job soon. I wish I wasn’t in this situation, but I just happened to be the “Taylor Swift” of careers. In fact, maybe it should be called the “Tortured Job Searchers Department” and I am considered the chairman.

Overall, those are the biggest updates that have happened to me recently. It has negatively impacted my mental health by increasing my anxiety, and making me a little depressed. It is looking to be like a cruel summer, but it would’ve been worse had I stayed at my last job longer. I do apologize for not posting more on my mental health awareness series, but I might compensate by posting about another mental health topic later this year. Honestly mental health should be recognized all year round not just for one month. I also want to acknowledge that it has been two years since I started this blog while I was in a similar situation that time. Even though my future is up in the air, there is still a lot to look forward to the rest of the year. For instance, there is Marvel’s next movie: Deadpool & Wolverine, and the first of part of the Wicked movie will also be releasing later this year. Marvel also announced they will be returning to San Diego Comic Con to do their big presentation, so expect a future post on the latest announcements. I will also bring back my MCU movie reviews with phase 4 movies. Until then, please wish me luck in getting a new job and please take care of yourselves.